what's left behind

2011-07-02T08:34:00.000-07:00

to whom he/she may concern,

from now on,i've deleted that thing,saya dah tak sanggup and im sorry if what i did is too cruel. you have your own life and me too,hmm you shouldnt do that you know,it's like kawan makan kawan jugak lah apa you buat kan.pity him. hmm kay papelah just so you know or if you read this,that thing dah dissapear.i dah delete. kay take care,

God,help me to get through this.kepada Kau aku berserah:')

2011-07-01T00:11:00.000-07:00

need to reduce weight i feel like a balloon:D

2011-06-30T23:50:00.000-07:00

YA ALLAH,
peliharalah hati hamba mu ini:(

tiba tiba rasa rindu nak free hair baik:( tengok folder gamba lama suddenly terfikir macam tu.rasa macam nak je post pic lama2 dekat sini tapi hmm sini bukannya private sangat pun orang boleh tengok so,hmm lupakan je lah niat:')

besar betul dugaan berada di jalan ini kan?:)
semoga Allah memberkati laluku.AMIN<3

2011-06-30T08:18:00.000-07:00

tiba tiba rasa susah nak teruskan hidup.for those yang baca about my life surely korang cakap asl lah aku ni asyik bersedih je kan.but the fact is memang pun hmm at one point when i laugh too much,it means that im trying to hide my true feeling:) thats the thing i learn for the past few years. smile and keep laughing eventhough only you know the pain, tapi tipulah if aku langsung tak pernah sedih in front of the public kalau dah macamtu means emotion dah tak boleh kawal.i did cry few times but if its the only way to feel much more relieved then nak buat macamana.one thing yang aku belajar,appreciate your lifelah okay people:) value every single thing and dont take for grated dont keep complaining about your life eventhough i did so:) hmm entah la i wish i could have the gut to make my own decision to actually be brave and feel confidence with whatever thing i do. and its really hard when sometimes your memory keeps following you,and you try to erase them bit by bit for the sake of everyone's happiness:') dah nak masuk 3 bulan and insyaAllah evrything will be fine. lagipun God's willing tahun depan masuklah aku belajar in medical field.doakan aku ye;) mane2 belajar pun sama janji niat nak tolong orang.InsyaAllah dipermudahkan:) and entah bila dah 19 tahun ni hehe bajet dah besar dah tak nak flirt flirt dah.its time to find someone who can be our future husband:P haha okay ni dah menggedik i mean not now lah people! meaning if i want to really get into relationship,insyaAllah i'll preserve and take good care of the relationship,dah tak nak main main.well thats just my wish:) we dont know what life have offered kan.so move on:)

2011-06-29T02:50:00.001-07:00

tak tahu nak cakap macamana.hmm tapi bukan nak berlagak bukan nak menunjuk i just wanna share what i feel.jujurnya i feel so lonely i mean hidup without boyfriend ni hmm ye lah dulu nak dekat one year i have someone to depend on kan sekarang tak lagi:') tapi ada hikmah yang aku dapat.aku started to fall in love with Him:) satu perkara yang buat aku jadi tenang and berani menempuh hari hari mendatang.it sounds weird kan bila dania yang cakap pasal agama ni,but to get through this journey of life,aku mula yakin dan percaya seratus peratus bahawa semuanya atas kehendak-Nya.and the best way is to mengadu to Him:) entahlah susah nak cakap rasanya tapi rasa tu manis and indah lah.selama ni bila ada masalah i always cried and ended dengan tidur tapi betapa kurangnya kita ingat dekat Tuhan:( sedihnya aku hmm tapi sekarang aku tak rasa sakit sangat sebab i know i have Him beside me:)betapa banyak ayat ayat indahnya yang boleh mententeramkan hati:') walaupun aku agak terlambat dapat rasa kenikmatan tu tapi aku bersyukur Allah masih sayangkan aku dan tak pernah lupa akan aku.everything has been planned by Him.and aku redha dengan segala galanya yang ditakdirkan:)

Karena sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan:')

2011-06-21T19:49:00.000-07:00

HEYYY!now tengah dalam kelas mostly semua frust menangis pergi tandas and burst:)alhamdulillah aku dah let go semua semalam penat nangis so today i can say that im much better boleh terima hakikat.hidup umpama roda kan?you wont be forever on the top.mesti ada hikmah.sekarang ni macam turning point dalam kehidupan where semua rasa macam patah hati sangat. bukan salahkan sesiapa, but we know we've been struggling that hard kan sekali result came out mcm lagi worst:( but sokay:) aku pernah jugak rasa down macm ni dulu i eventhough the pain sekarang ni mcm lagi hebat but at least i know im not alone. time ni lah bila kite sedar we really need our friends' support:) and thnks to everyone especially mommy abi along achik and not to frget trah for being my side time sedih ni. and of course mama,thnks for understanding me:) i know u were quite dissapointed,but ma,i'll prove to you that i will succeed in the future:) InsyaAllah:) and Allah takkan turunkan ujian dekat kita if Dia tahu kita tak mampu:) and most important thing is that Allah tengok usaha bukan kejayaan kita:) yakinlah disebalik kesedihan pasti ada penawarnya:)

ikhlas;
dania:)

2011-06-21T08:14:00.000-07:00

sekarang semua pasrah dengan result exam.apetah lagi aku:/ haih baru call mama tadi,sorry mama:( along dah buat the best.sorry to dissapoint mama papa,tapi tak pelah aku dah belajar terima hakikat.mane2 blajar pun same je:) yang penting dapat belajar and become i wanna be, sedih bila dengar mama cakap dont think about what others said yang penting you do it for our family.besarnya responsibility aku:( hrm,do it for our family and most important for ur ownselves if we you wanna change ur life:)

still recoveringgg:)

Allah selalu memberi pelangi disetiap badai, Senyum di setiap air mata, berkah disetiap cobaan & jawaban di setiap doa

may tomorrow be a better day:)

2011-06-19T22:15:00.000-07:00

few days passed tapi hati aku still macam ni,tak tenteram.still rasa takut and im not ready for this sem:( not even at all,ntah lah.im not this strong, nak cerita dekat kawan kawan kat situ.sume face the same thing.its just aku tak boleh.slame ni sume bnda aku yakin aku boleh get through but this IB thingy memang boleh buat aku menangis.:( and lame lame bila fikir,is it really what i want? am i ready enough nak get through sume ni? entah la selama ni laluan hidup aku sume straight i mean memang science then get through books then jawab exam then entah.the same thing yang sampaikan i dont know what i really want actually.tapi yang aku tahu i really wanna make my parents proud of me.aku nak tolong dorang.tu je,they've been sacrificed too much for me.for both of you,im willing to take the risk and sacrifice my own feeling just to make you guys be proud of me:)

love's,
dania:)

2011-06-18T18:30:00.000-07:00

tiba tiba rasa nak delete semua post jiwang sebelum ni,-.- is it me?woah malunyaaaa! malam ni nak re-edit lah blog ni.dah macam blog cinta pulak.heh.i wanna put more info here.bye:)

oh thanks awak sebab bagi kite happy:P

2011-06-18T08:22:00.000-07:00

hello!erk.okay memang nak menggedik pun gamba atas ni but who cares?ive been thinking so much recently.lebih lebih lagi about this MPI thingy.and im a bit terasa mcm nak cakap smething pasal that tutup aurat thingy.few pictures yang jadi examples tu macam condemn orang.what do u expect? people change bit by bit.kalau nak suruh orang terus pakai mcmtu,tutup and labuhkan tudung macamtu terus for me its not fair.yes i didnt say that they are wrong.tapi gunalah pendekatan yang lagi baik.semua orang x perfect.yang penting teh first thing jagalah rambut kan.for the starter like me.tu yang penting.im quite piss off for those yang pakai tudung but then few occasions bukak.tu bukan pakai namenya.i do look up to fashion bila dah berhijab ni,but i try to not dedahkan rambut esp. if nak pakai tudung just suka2 then baik x payah.and im sorry if my post is a abit harsh but just janganlah buat macamtu.back to pasal that event.kita tak tahu apa niat and hati orang.and sure dorang sedih if they know that their pictures are being used for examples.after all we are just a normal human being.perubahan perlukan masa.but apa yang baik i still grab those knowlegde,thanks:)

2011-06-10T03:53:00.000-07:00

hehe.ntah tetibe rasa nak upload gamba si kembar ni.hehe.mcm best ade kembarkan?hehe.nnti saya nak anak kembar ye ye wahai future husbandku(haha.ntah sape lah kan:p) hehe,okay dah tu mcm gatal.no lah actually i wanna share about my experience having cultural exchange.but not in a good mood.later later la.hrm,actually i have so many thing to write but i guess lets just keep it to myself.hehe.or else i have to find shoulders to cry on.hehe.tunggu tunggu lah bila saya ade extra creds:) hee.hrm.okaylah.last words.CAN I JUST GO DIE?-.-

2011-06-08T09:53:00.000-07:00

and when i start ignoring someone.thats the time where i dont need and feel you any longer.being alone isnt that bad.im trying to not easily fall in love again.after all love need commitment sacrifice and the biggest part is to let you heart being hurt again.guess i have to start thinking of being FOREVER LONER-.-

2011-06-07T10:23:00.001-07:00

Most of your body is in pairs except for your heart, because your other heart was given to someone else for you to find.

sweetnya:)

2011-06-07T10:20:00.001-07:00

Never be afraid to love the next person, because the next person may be the best person and the person that helps you ease the old pains.:')

2011-06-07T10:18:00.000-07:00

To fall in love is so easy, staying in love is a challenge, letting go is the hardest part, and moving on is got suicide.

love's
dania:)

2011-05-29T08:56:00.000-07:00

haih tomorrow ill be going to Bangkok.hrm.dunno what to feel,takut pun ade jugak:/ just doa je la evrythg would be fine,hrm,and ntah la im going fr a week.so seminggu lah i wont be contncting evryone here,makin jauh lah lgi:( but what happend ade hikmah x nk lah knangkan lagi,hrm.moving on.and hopefully ade yusra dgn ain ni siapkan at least portfolio math and stdy math and as well as worl Lit sket,aku sgt berazam nk stdy kat sane.seminggu kut.haih.bazir mcmtu je:( and kene arrange lagi appoinment blek Bangkok ramai sgt nk jumpe:P haha.mcm aku dah x blek rumah dah.and for that need money.HAHA.borosnya la aku ni.waaa:( hrm.x pe lah.nnti insaf lah sket.hrm.act been thinking of nk tules pasal Pulau Berhala but no time.so nnti nntilah:) btw i know evryone will be missing me:P but kejap je okay?:) i"ll be back.but doakan lah ill be safe there:)
byebye people,LOVE YA!<3

2011-05-28T05:51:00.000-07:00

kau nampk aku senyum?pandai x aku act like nothing happened in front of the public?:) the only way bile aku boleh jd happy is bile aku bershopping,bru aku thu why aku boros sgt,sbb aku nk sembunyikan perasaan aku sbb aku nk lupekan kesedihn aku,and paling pnting utk aku teruskan hidup,aku yg salah jd aku x sepatutnya rase ape2,and aku bangga sbb aku dh pndai buat decision even if its not the biggest,tp aku yakin dgn kate hati aku:) and what past is past,the future's waiting for me:) and im looking forward for whatever miracles that come around in the future.IM READY!hehe<3

2011-05-27T09:13:00.000-07:00

hyeeee:) dah lame xpost anythg kan?:) i never know ade jugak org follow blog yg boring ni.anyway x ksah la:) act i wanna talk about my new life,hee.ive started wearing hijab fr a month ago and im happy that so far i never thought of nk bukak blek:) hee,its a bless for me,ntah la bfre ni slalu rase belah bgi dilemma,but now dh x,alhamdulillah:) i really hope its permanent.aku thu bile aku pakai tdung nnti org igt aku dh totaly baek alim ke ape,but all i can say people change bit by bit.dnt expect much.aku berubah ikut hati.x de spe pakse,ye ade lah mama ade ckp suke aku pakai tdung,but she didnt froce me,bfre ni aku ckp aku nk pakai tdung then bile aku x pakai,means free hair blek,org ckp aku ckp kosong.haih.bkan senang.some people dpt hidayah tu cpt je,tp aku bersyukur la aku dpt kesedaran tu skrg,ibadat and other stuffs yg aku buat bfre ni,aku sdang cube improvekan,benda x elok aku tggallkan,tp mcm aku kate lah bkan senang,but somehow im proud of myself:) ye lah,dah besar kan,x sangka dah 19:) so kene la matured jugak.hehe.hrm.and one more thing i really love fashion skrg.asyik shopping je aku,mmg parah la,haih:( kenape la boros sgt ni dania:( hrm.now aku tgh saving lagi.fr what?tuk shopping jugak!haha.biarlha jnji aku happy:P hrm,tp botak lah kan,hehe,mama dah bebel dah kte berlagak mcm org kaye,hehe,sorry mama!cnt help it.hee.oh just got bck from pula berhala,nnti i"ll post abput my experience kat stu:) till here!byeee

2011-04-19T03:54:00.001-07:00

been a long time i didnt post any entry,sorry fr myself:( im pretty damn tired with the endless homework assignment and projects. but x pelah,sacrifice dania sacrifice:)
hee.oh yea exam dh nk dekat,cuaknyaaa:(im hoping for the best.byk sgt sacrifice aku buat tahun ni.i mean this sem,i hope its worth:) talking bout life,nothg much but i just find out that he will try on other girl,that's great:) im happy for you,i mean i yg suruh kan.so i thnk i can deal with this emotionally break down,its okay.nothg last pun kan.ive accpted it,and seeing u moving so fast,i guess i have let go,its hard though but biarla i get over it slowly,i know somehow org mane yg boleh ttbe je okay kan?but this is what we called risiko nye lah,for you,i'll pray for ur happiness.:') nothg much i asked.oh and korang korang sume,i'll change my number soon i blek rumah,so nnti u guys dptlah text from me nnti,hee.and oh last few days trah called me,surprisingly:) rindu dia,hehe.tp kiteorg dh x mcm dulu pun,but xpe lah.people grow up kan,masing2 ade jalan sndri,hee,but i'll try to maintain friendship ni,dh lame kut ngn dia,so lets just remember the good one je lah.

move on dania,<3

2011-04-04T05:27:00.000-07:00

it feels weird.realy weird but i try to overcome it:) and hari hari aku kat sni getting better:) a good start i think, if u love me,then hold me tightly cause we never know wht happen in the future.pape pun. aku gmbira:)

sklai lagi aku ckp,the camp was great!:)

even kaki dan tgn aku dh mcm buruk gila tp its worth,hihi.okaylah.aku nk siapkan hw:)
thnks papa for susahkan dri pg sgapore cr buku IB saya:(
along jnji along stdy hard keyh?:)

and im looking frward to blek rumah ths week:)
xsabar!hihi,byebye<3

2011-04-03T01:26:00.000-07:00

salahkah aku?

2011-04-03T01:00:00.000-07:00

hye!just coming back from camp,feel so tired and muke aku terbakar kut,haha,merah semacam je,haha,hrm tp x pe lah.i dnt care pun!ahha,sbb aku x payah nk kesah dah,hitam ke gemuk ke.ape2 lah sbb since i have nobody skrg,even aku rase aku makin gemuk:(
overall camp ni best lah,esp that bakau part,sweet experience:) haha.x penah2 aku jd mcmtu,hrm,and that mlm kebudayaan pun awesome,aku kalah dlm battle membunuh nyamuk!foine!haha,hrm.and thnk god aku ade kekuatan nk menempuh hari2,aku mcm nk ade camp setiap mase,so that aku x payah sedih2,heee,this week balek!hee,sgt x sbar!aku igt nk shopping,hee,tgklah nnti mintak spe temankan,x kire!aku kene jugak shopping sbb minggu ni je aku blek bfre final,sobsob,sedinhya,nk masuk sem 3 dah aku:( blaja baek2 ye along,papa penat2 pg sngapore crikan buku IB:( so aku kene work hard,dptkan 40 above then dpt kereta!insyaAllah dpt kereta:) and x sbar nk duduk bilik bru,dapt merase pun jdlah;) asyik tangguh je pindah bangi,hopefully ths month pindah lah,dulu mmg berat hati nk pndah,skrg im okay kut,hrm.aku frust x dpt maxi skirt,ill make sure ths week aku dpt!tata!

2011-03-31T12:24:00.000-07:00

aku still nk kau

2011-03-31T11:52:00.000-07:00

just jawab

2011-03-31T11:32:00.001-07:00

kau takkan berubah kan?

2011-03-31T11:28:00.001-07:00

pd dasarnya aku dh berputus asa.

2011-03-31T11:19:00.000-07:00

kau pentingkan music sbb kau x ckp kat aku pun dulu,aku ni mcm ape je,tu adelah main reason,dan aku brubah sjak bfre aku break dgn kau,tu adelah reason yg bg aku smgt untuk tglkan kau

2011-03-31T11:06:00.000-07:00

inilah masalah kau,aku berckp kau igt aku perlekehkan kau,x perlulah ckp psl dosa kat sni,x layak kau tahu, cukupla,aku dah agak kau x kan faham mksud aku,sudahlah,setiap mlm aku gaduh dgn kau,air mata aku dh nk kering pun,jd kau lupakanlah aku.aku gmbira sbb pnah gelak ketawa dgn kau,aku rindu ketika itu,kalau kau nk mulakan lg pergaduhan,aku sedia berundur,biar aku tdur dgn memori kita,

2011-03-31T11:00:00.001-07:00

music.fullstop,

2011-03-31T10:57:00.000-07:00

aku pergi esok,dan jika aku x blek,kau halalkan sgalanya,doakan terbaik untuk kita:)
aku rindu kau,be strong dania:)

dan sedihnya bila tiada siapa menemani aku,nangis lagi,benci:(

selamat tinggal,may evrythg would be fine<3

2011-03-31T10:46:00.000-07:00

aku x pernah ignore kau,siang malam aku nangis,aku just nk hbgn ni jd ikhlas,jd yang sepatutnya,aku nk kite bimbing each other,aku tahu susah,ckuplah kalau kita try,kau berubah dan aku juga,mungkin nmpk pelik kan?aku bkannya baik,tp sini sya ckp aku berjihad,and dia x pnah paksa aku,dia kate aku jujur syg kau,dia nmpk aku nangis mcmane,aku pgang ape dia ckp,aku hanya ade dua pilihan,aku sntiasa harp yg kedua:') sbb aku syg kau,tp kau x nk,aku terpksa,td sya yg amik phne aku,dia x nk aku jd lost control,jd aku relakan sbb bg aku ckuplah penghinaan kau,jiwa aku lmbut skrg,cacian kau sgt menyakitkan,dan dgn ape kau ckp jugaklah yg mnjadi kekuatan aku untuk pergi,kau ckp ape kau kesah,dan di situ aku yakin kau mmpu hidup tnpa aku,susah kau tahu.aku tgk phne setiap mase tp aku terlupa kau bkannya aku punya lg,aku terlupa hakikat tu,aku x pnah putus asa tp biarlah syg aku dkt kau aku simpan smpai bila2,aku tnggu pilihan kedua jika itu ketentuannya:)

2011-03-31T03:59:00.000-07:00

aku x pernah berniat nk menjauhkan diri dari kau,tp aku benar2 putus berharap,terhenti di sini,aku sayang kau smpi bila2 tp cukuplah,aku x snggup lagi dicaci,smlm noktah terakhir buat aku,aku nangis bagai nak gila bila nak tekan "unfriend" tu,hanya Allah yang tahu,aku bersyukur ketika tu,ade kawan dtg ke bilik,risau melihat pergaduhan kita di fb,dialah tmpt aku menangis,mncari kekuatan dri,tiada siapa memaksa,aku tekan dgn degupan jantung yg hanya Allah yang tahu,susah,perit,aku malu dicaci begitu di hadapan,public:( pada Sya lah,ake nngis,syukur ramai prihatin, dan dia juga yang menghlang niat aku nk remove kau,tp hati aku dh ckup parah. aku percaya di kemudian hari,aku ada 2 pilihan,samada berjumpa dgn lelaki lain mahupun kmbali ke pangkuan kau dengan perubahan yang baru,aku pegang dua perkara itu,jauh di sudut hati,aku mgharapkan peluang kedua itu namun siapalah aku ingin menolak tkdir, aku berharap hari hariku akan kmbali seperti sediakala,dan aku terima jika kau jualah jodoh ku pada akhirnya,biarlah masa menentukan kita:')

kau jaga diri baek2,agak janggal bila aku memanggil kau dgn glaran kau sdangkan kau jugalah dulu yg mndpt tmpt di hati aku,kau jaga diri baik2,x payah risaukan aku,aku masih mmpu bernafas menempuh hari esok.

aku rindu kau<3

2011-03-30T11:25:00.000-07:00

aku igt lagi kau beritahu aku di rooftop,kau nk keje 31march:)
aku demand blanje aku,what sweet memory:')

2011-03-30T09:35:00.000-07:00

kau x thu betapa kecewa dan terseksanya aku melihat kau memilih musik daripada aku,aku jd nk gila,tp x pe,aku rase aku patut berhenti berharap kepada kau,ckuplah penantian hari ini,aku harap pemergian aku ke camp minggu ini dpt merawat hati aku,sekian,aku pergi

2011-03-30T08:33:00.000-07:00

i miss you in every single way,stay strong dania:')

2011-03-30T05:51:00.000-07:00

aku tahu kau baca aku punya blog dan aku juga baca,aku doakan kau.aku xpnah nilai kau mcmtu sbb kite semua sama pada hakikatnya.masa depan tiada siapa yang tahu,maafkan aku jika aku salah tafsir,tp aku ikut kata hati aku,aku lalui hari hari dgn penuh ketakutan tanpa kau.tp aku cuba,dan kau x mncari aku lg,walau aku terseksa aku teruskan,semoga kita bahagia.dan skrg aku x merancang masa dpan sbb aku tahu ntah sempat ntah tidak,yakinlah ape terjadi pada kita sudah tertulis,
aku syg kau,aku pergi dulu,jasad mungkin masih bernyawa tapi hakikatnya jiwa aku sudah pudar,
selamat tinggal.

2011-03-30T04:10:00.000-07:00

i miss my both little sister;*

2011-03-30T04:07:00.000-07:00

SAYA RINDU MAMA SAYA,SAYA NK PELUK MAMA SAYA,SINCE WHEN I BECOME SUCH A SENSTIVE PERSON:(

2011-03-30T03:53:00.000-07:00

i'll be going for PBSM camp,dont miss me people!haha,jangan perasan la dania,xde siape rindu kau punnng!i'll be writing lg befre im leaving,just nk ckp sedihnyaaa maxi skirt tu dah hbes:( excited sket bile jezmine reply,x pe2,no matter what,i'll buy those superrr exciting things!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-03-30T03:26:00.000-07:00

again,aku menulis,aku hanya ingin meluahkan rasa hati aku,hehe,hrm,sangat poyo but then ade certain things i couldnt share with my friends.mesti pelikkan aku letakkan gamba ni?hrm,aku rse semua tahu pun,HAHA,hrm,he's my boyfriend for almost a year:) relationship paling lama aku,hrm,aku tulis sbb aku nk,kalau korang x suke,then jangan bace,hehe,hrm.aku syg dia,aku x tipu,aku rse aku dh nangis terlampau byk untuk dia,means aku syg dia lah kan?tp ade satu perkara aku x suka,aku x suka dgn interest dia,and dia pun tahu,yet he still nk buat jugak,aku tnye korang?ape korang akan buat?sbb aku pun x tahu nk buat ape,i know akan ade ckp biarlah.tu hobi dia,yadadada,tp aku x boleh,and lagi lame aku smpan,and aku try terima,but akhirnya aku sdar aku x boleh,thats why aku korbankan hbgn ni,korang nk ckp aku dump dia?x sma skali,sbb xde kaitan dgn org ketiga,org kata bila xde persefahaman,mungkin itu juga,aku sedar dunia aku dgn dia lain,nk cerita pasal muzik,jauh sama skali,aku x paham,dunia aku hnya pada buku dan kertas yang aku sndri dah muak,tp aku tiada pilihan,mungkin ini jalan terbaik Allah berikan,aku mmebrontak,namun skrg aku redha,somehow,jauh di sudut hati,aku mengharapkan kau berubah,tolong lah,tp aku yakin itu hanya angan aku,ape lg mampu aku buat?kau perlu tahu,hbgn bkan skadar berlandaskan cinta,ia x kan kemane,yakinlah,aku terseksa kau tahu,tp ni jalan yg aku pilih,juga kau,kau memilih untuk meneruskan minat kau,nk aku mmilih untuk back off,berundur,aku berdoa kau akan berubah,and aku juga percya kau akan jumpa dgn someone yg benar2 memahami kau,betul,its not worth crying for me,and kau kene yakin itu,aku terpaksa teruskan khidupan,hari2 sepi tanpa kau,tp jika ini sudah takdirnya aku redha,ade yg lebik baik dr aku,mungkin kau ckp ramai lg better dr kau,tp aku pun bkanlah baik dan aku berharap kita membesar dan berubah bersama2,kau perasankan aku x nk skype mcm yg biasa kita buat?aku tgh cuba,cuba untuk mnjadikan hubungan kita suatu yg manis,ye aku berubah secara mndadak,tp aku nk kau jugak,kita sme2 bimbing each other,eventhough susah:') aku tahu susah lagi2 bile kite berjumpa tp kita boleh cuba,jd lebih baik,hbgn ni akan jd lebih bersinar,tp aku tahu itu semua angan2 aku,bkan kau,jd aku terpksa pergi,aku tepksa berundur,kau sbhagian dr hidup aku,bkan senang.tp sbgaimana kau boleh aku yakin aku juga mampu mengharungi hari mendatang,

ingatlah,aku sentiasa sayang kau,sampai mati:')

2011-03-30T03:14:00.000-07:00

heyyy,lame dah x update blog,rase mcm berzaman,aku tahu aku tulis time aku sedih je,biarlah,aku punye blog bukan korang,hrm,byk bnda jadi lately.dulu aku x sangka jadi dewasa susah,aku sibuk nk jd org besar,tp bila dah getting near to 20,aku rse nk jd budak kecik blek,aku x ready nk face masalah dunia,bru aku sdar tyme ssp tu,masalah yg aku hdapi snanya x de bnde pun,asyik2 bab stdy,aku x ready,sumpah.masalah masa depan,cinta,tanggungjawab. and time ni jugak aku realize aku mkin jauh dri tuhan.He's giving me so many chances,sgt banyak,aku x mampu lg tahan,aku nangis,betapa besarnya Allah dan betape kerdilnya aku,:( yet Dia x pernah putus2 memberi kasih syg kpada aku,aku jahil sbnrnya,aku terlampau berpegang pd ego yg x kemane pun,and aku slalu ignrekan petunjuk yg aku dpt,kejamnya aku,tp smpai stu mase,aku yakin aku perlu berada di landasan yg betul,dlm slah stu usrah hritu,aku x igt ayat keberape,tp dinyatakan,jangan sampai Allah tutup hijab,x pandang langsung kita:( aku takut:( aku ke tergolong dlm kumpulan tu? betul,ianya hanya akan dtg bile kau mencari,bila hati terdetik pada suatu perkara yg kau sndiri x pasti,aku nangis,Alhamdulillah,sini aku ramai tmpt bergantung,mereka kawan yang baik,aku bersyukur,aku seringkali takut dgn pndgn org laen,kate aku angan2 kosong,tp bukan,aku dlm proses,aku x mmpu buat perubahan drastik,tp aku yakin hanya aku dan Allah sja tahu,Dia tahu niatku,aku bersyukur aku x terlambat memulakanya,biarlah mereka berkata,aku korbankan perasaan aku,aku yakin ade kemanisan di pengakhirannya,tp jangan terlmpau berharap,aku bkan nk menunjuk,ckuplah skadar rintihan perasaan seorang hambaMu ini:')

2011-02-25T01:28:00.000-08:00

life' been pretty much tired now.dgn lab report,dgn hmewrk dgn test dgn nk fikir idea fr ee and G4 nya,i can say that my mind doesnt stop working unless when im having my sleeping hours.tu pun 3 jam mcmtu je.x sihat sungguh,ive recently drink nescafe black roast which i can say sgt power,but then it's not good actually. nk jadi doctor tp kesihatan dri kau pun kau x jaga:( i dont eat for lunch either,and breakfast pun mkn biskut kering je mcmtu,dh terbiase with this eating habit so dah immune kut,HAHA,hrm,overall pun i guess this is the life taht mmg bukan aku yg plih but then Allah dh tetapkan yg this is the bets route for me,so even i have so many things to complain about,i know evrthg surely have the hikmah.bfre ni i never cried when in comes to stdy and times management but masuk KMB,evrythg's mess up,aku igt aku boleh having the same fun life but then im wrong,kau leka enjoy kau yg rugi,that's what i learnt during last sem,byk sgt blek every weeknd adn stdy ntah ke mane,i dnt wanna do the same thing lagi and hopefully this sem would bring good fortune for me,HAHA,hrm,act byk nk tules but then i hve to sambung buat lab repot,till here,will be cntinued:)

2011-02-25T00:11:00.000-08:00

i love the combination of these two colors,and im so happy that my room would be in these two colors:)

hee,cpatlah pindah.x sabar nak ade bilik mcm hotel:)
heee.

2010-08-07T23:33:00.000-07:00

i guess im giving up and that's it:')
i hope this is the best decision i ever made.its hurt when u really love someone yet he doesnt appreciate u.and i believe letting u go is the best right now.if really meant for each other,by what mean pun,we'll still be together:)

may god bless you.and for you,this is the first time i didnt hate people when i let them go.its because i let you go sincerely and i know its the best for you and for me.i guess.dont worry.my pray will always be with you:)

lots of love,
dania:)

2010-08-07T00:03:00.000-07:00

bla bla bla

2010-08-06T23:51:00.000-07:00

is it my fault if i treat other guy oneday ?is it my fault if i turn to the other guy and ignore u oneday?is it my fault if i change my feeling towards you?is it my fault to let it happened?just so you know if that day happens,i wont regret a single thing because im pretty sure it's not my fault.u may say that yeah its all your fault,but the fact is it is really your fault,i wont look at you and say that it's my fault too.because ive sacrificed a lot for us.only i know wht im dealing with.i dont believe im as this right now.as loyal as nobody would think of.but if my sacrifices are'nt being appreciated by you,i guess other guy should deserve it.i repeat if one day it happened.i dont ask for it.but somehow people have their own limit kan?so do i:)

dont say that i didnt remind u because i guess ive told u so many times:)
sometimes when a couple break up,that's doesnt mean that either the guy or the girl found anther one,its because one of them doesnt appreciate his/her partner well:)

izzat only:)

2010-08-01T04:03:00.000-07:00

haih.i dont know why suddenly terase lonely pulak ni.semua sbb si nayzu ni x balek2 lagi.cpt lah balek.dah lapar dah ni:)
and after ni nak siapkan presentation agama and 2 lab reports yg im not sure btul ke x.HAHAH
okay enough with it,that's not my main point actually.
the big big reason is because i started to miss you:(
eventhough baru tadi jumpa kan.but tu lah kan.i seriously hate the part when i have to say goodbye to u.act i thgt there would be no drama for this tyme.but seem like u are so clever kan.ade jugak idea bernas u.HAHA.good boy baby:)
i just nk ckp thnks for giving me a second chance and be so patient that somehow i just couldnt imagine how can u be so cool eventhough wht i did to u was so terrible.but yeah.thats what made u so special to me:)
last week was the toughest week for us kan?paling byk bergaduh since last 2 months.yeah ive said to u befre kan i suke gaduh.but when dah makin syg u.no i mean gila sayang u i couldnt bare to keep on fighting lagi.i rase x larat nk gaduh dgn u.so the best way skarang is we have to really give and take.ill try my best to jaga hati you,and i hope ure doing the same thing. i can say ive sacrificed much i mean a lot when i be with you.and i hope its a worth for me to stay with you:)
i didnt regret of being with you,not even a bit,because i know and i can feel ure the right person for me:)

I LOVE YOU DAMN MUC,baby:)

im back!

2010-08-01T03:59:00.000-07:00

okay.now and onwards,ill be blogging back:)
why?because my other half asked me to do so,so since dah ade request.ade lah smgt balek nk blogging,and fyi,i didnt ask people to read pun wht i tules dalm blog ni.its just the place for me to express my feeling towards anythg,*someone*:)
and okay now to u BABY,dah boleh start jd my secret follower lah since u dont have blog kan:)

2010-06-03T09:34:00.000-07:00

MR ELMO,

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH,JUST PLEASE DONT GO AWAY:)

pinky swearhaha

2010-06-03T09:20:00.000-07:00

okay it seem like lama gila i x blogging kan?yeah.sbb life getting bored wth all the social network stuffs,but nak buat apa lgi kan besides facebooking.i guess masuk blaja nnti i will sgt2 jarang online.enoough wth people dlm maya ni.ahha.hrm.okay.snce ramai pun yg dah beralih ke tmblr and stuffs sume,i jst lgi suke read about people's life je kan:)okay,actually i nak tules something.i mean if He really read this,yeah its for you.tu pun if u still stalk i lagilah.idk.mybe,mybe:D.actually i didnt expect kita terserempak oh.seriously.why u have to like x knl i?okay i know its totally my fault.but listen here,u are not my bf okay?so there's no such thing as i dump u or stuffs,u should know wht u did to me bfre u ckp anythg about me.u nak i listkan?okay x payah la kan,but u tahu how u treat me,and i cannot stand when theres rumours ckp i playgirl.WHO THE HELL IN THIS WORLD yg ckp i mcmtu?bg i prove dulu.then i puas.bodoh tahu.dah la yg bgthu tu ur ex.damn gila.and u rasa i deserve those layanan la kan?and fyi,im not that cheap okay?i bukan senang2 la nak buat apa yg u suruh.bodoh i tahu if i buat;)okay.bck to that part,u borak2 dgn trah padahal i ada kat sblah?u rasa i sket hati la eh?no,not at all.i just rasa klaka je,hrm.whatever pun.i hope that u happy wth ur new life.college and stuffs,eventhough u x nk kawan dgn i,i still doakan u.i mean i really sayang and kesian person like u terbiar mcm tu.lantaklah u nak kata i simpati dkt u ke apa.but i really mean it:)
u crilah wht's the best for you,and im sorry for the things ive done to you:)

a long time ago

2010-04-25T19:39:00.000-07:00

haha.baru aku sedar,dania dulu memang x berubah.i still love to melaram smpai skrg:)

AND I DO MISS THE KIDDIES'S MOMENT:(

star

2010-04-25T19:38:00.001-07:00

it feels good to have u around:)

specially for Mr AJ

2010-04-25T19:22:00.000-07:00

entry kata ni its about a guy yang aku rasa mcm dah x tahan dah.haha.
so rasa mcm nk tulis pasal dia.ahaha
tp sah2 la u x baca pun kan.so lagi bgus.haha
okay,listen.frst and foremost,obv u tahu kan i tolak u.i mean common la.
i bukan nk jadi bini org lagi la.u pun tahu i ni bru 18.x sampai pun lgi.
u tu dah nak masuk 25.thnk rationally lah sket cik abg.
since the day i pg gym and u train me i just anggap u mcm abg i je
seriously.ye lah kan i don have brothers,so mmg terasa la u mcm abg i.
like baik and i rasa cmfort ada dlm gym tu:)
but somehow bila u text me and stuff mntak couple,its kinda weird.bru 2 hari knl nk further relation.haish.so notla kan.x masuk akal.org GILA je terima u tahu x?
but then its been a long time u didnt text me or even tgur i dkat gym
so i guess uve found smone else lah kan.x pun tersngakut kat minah jongang yang sexy tu kan.menggedik sana sini.haha.i pun igt okaylah.dah x payah nk fikir pasal u lagi kan.but bila membership i dah expired and i dah x dtg gym.story ni dtg balek.ADUH!
masalah lagi.u igt i apa?igt u boleh dapat i la dgn mintak tolong my cousin tu.u igt diaorg boleh tlong.common la.kita ni kalau berjalan mcm abg dgn adik tahu.haha
nk mintak kluar berdua je jgn harap la i nak.takut aku.ahha.u pls la.u x nmpk ke the way i treat u.u boleh cri ramai lagi permpuan.u dah la kaya u have evrythg.tp jgnlah sbb tu u igt u senang2 boleh dptkan i.u crilah perempuan tuk buat bini skrg,but obv its not me.satu gym tu dah taw.i x kan pg stu lagi lah kan.NOW AND FOREVER,i still anggap u mcm abang i:)

sincerely,
dania

bertudung

2010-04-20T08:43:00.000-07:00

aku tahu aku x pakai tudung,
i know im not a good muslimah.but aku x lah jahil
aku x lah bodoh agama sgt.jadi jangan judge aku only sbb aku x pakai tdung
kau ckp aku sexy?er.aku rasa aku x lah sexy pun.x de la aku pakai skirt ke apa ke?
baju sleeveless mcm tu je mmg x la.
tp apasl kau ckp aku sexy,kalau kau x suka,x payah pandang.
aku x mntak pun.bila kau ckp mcm tu.aku terima nasihat bila kau suruh aku pakai tudung,
aku dgr kan.tp bila dah mcm laen je bunyi kau aku bengang la.
aku tahu la weh.aku dah ckp byk kali dkat kau kan.
and if x nk kawan or malu kawan dgn aku just ckp la.aku x heran la hilang kau.
so kau igt kau baek sgt la flirt sana sini?
aku yg dengar pun meloyakan kut.dah ah kau crita dkat kaum sejenis yg kau maenkan.
apa2 ah.dah elok2 aku kawan ngn kau.kau buat hal kan.
mmg x la akunk berbaik dgn kau blik.and aku terima la sorry kau yg berapa byk tu
tp nak kawan balik dgn kau aku pikir lah beratus kali,kalau kau rasa kau bagus sgt.kau doakan la aku pakai tudung.bukan dgn cara apa yg kau buat dkat aku.paksa2.aku tahu la,aku x BODOH!dan aku harap kau x payah la nk cntct aku lgi eh sbb aku dah x heran.aku dah x peduli la.so bye

goodbye

2010-04-20T08:25:00.000-07:00

i feel like expressing something.but im not sure about what
the fight between aku dgn mak aku buat aku tak tenang.
haish.aku dah mintak maaf okay?now dah okay dah.
but yeah lately kita selalu gaduh.idk why.
apa x kena dgn aku?tp theres part of her advice yg buat aku terfikir beribu kali.
betul ke at the end,aku xkan ada sesiapa?btul ke evryone would leave me?
and should i say no to "hye" because somehow it will lead to a goodbye?
aku jadi takut.aku jadi fobia.aku jadi takut untuk nak tahu masa depan.
and apa adik aku ckp semua btul.aku pun x percaya betapa jahatnya aku,angkuhnya aku di mata mereka.aku jadi lalai leka,aku x patut buat semua tu.
they miss the old "along":(but wht's wrong with the along yg skrg?
aku jadi buntu.fikiran aku x tenteram.aku rasa mcm nk humban diri dalam laut so that evryone x rasa susah lagi dgn aku.aku x tahu apa perasaan aku skrg.im totally blind.
bila my mum ckp we only have each other aku jadi sgt sayu.i know its perit.
we dont have anybody except family yg always be there kan?they are so kind,they appreciate us:)so,ive realized no matter beribu kawan yg ada pun.at the end,they will leave me,for that aku kena build the wall dlm diri to not crying or regreting anythg when thgs macmni happened.ive also made a promise to not fall in love so easy because i dont want to get hurt.all this while,aku terlampau senang fall in love that sometimes mereka sgt senang memijak.so from now onwards,u will see a new DANIA,apa yg orang nampak x semesti sama dgn apa dalam hati aku.so lantak lah apa kau orang nk ckp sbb aku tahu siapa diri aku.and aku rasa aku dah mula belajar untuk menjadi keras hati:)its bad but somehow its good.being dania is not easy.haha.
poyo lah pulak.banyak responsiblity but sometimes aku yang terlepas pandang.hrm.so u guys yang baca ni.i know blog aku banyak cerita pasal kesedihan and stuffs,tp only dkat sni la aku dpt luahkan apa yg aku rasa sejujurnya,thnkk for whom yang concern:)

2010-04-20T08:12:00.000-07:00

ITS TOTALLY TRUE ABOUT EVRYTHING U'VE SAID.
AT THE END OF THE DAY,THE WORLD,ITS ONLY US
WE ONLY HAVE EACH OTHERS.
I'LL TRY TO CHANGE AND UNDERSTAND U.IM SORRY FOR THE MISTAKES IVE DONE.
I ADMIT IVE HURT YOUR FEELING.I DIDNT MEAN IT.
AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THAT I WOULD SACRIFICE MYSELF FOR YOU.
GIVE ME ANOTHER 10 YEARS TO PROVE TO YOU THAT THE SACRIFICE UVE MADE ALL THIS WHILE IS WORTH IT:)

P/S:mama,iloveyou

shitnya:(

2010-04-15T11:06:00.000-07:00

do i have made the right choice for me?
do i really want that kind of life?
am i willing to sacrife my entire life?
am i strong enough to deal with all those things?

now im a little bit confused,shesh.
unfortunately,there's no turning back.
God knows the best.just follow the flow
i hope i can find the way:(

ABCDEFG

2010-04-15T10:57:00.000-07:00

ahaha.weh2,apasal lama dah aku x dengar cerita pasl u.
ahha.ye la kan since dah ada new gf ni mcm biskut terus,
hilang tanpa khabar berita.haha.
well it's okay,i guess mmg friendship kita end up mcm ni pun
u're the one who was so coward,sumpa x penah jumpa org macm u.haha
plus.dgn sikap u yg annoying gla babs.haha.sakit hati je en.ahha.
well.u and ur life,and so do i.so.till we meet again oneday:)
before i menutup mata nk lah jugak jumpa u kan?:P
haha.bye2

just four of us:)

2010-04-14T07:20:00.000-07:00

since its my blog.so i have the right to write anything i want.
i dont ask u guys to read because at the end of the day there's nothg u can do:)
hrm.until when we have to live up this way?until when that we have to be patient?
do we have to wait for the next 10 years?or maybe it's the destiny that we have to really accept?well i know no one can answer me.only God have the answer:)
so as long im still alive ive decided to just wait and see:)

2010-04-12T10:38:00.000-07:00

JIKA SAYA HILANG ATAU TIDAK DIJUMPAI,SILA CARI RANTAI INI KERANA DIA BUKTI KEWUJUDAN SAYA:)

SEKIAN,TERIMA KASIH:D

nayzu gedik!

2010-04-12T09:42:00.000-07:00

tada!okayh.since dia ni kan mcm request suruh i letak dkat blog ni.so i post kan la about this hot babe!er,haa.maken lama aku tgk kau makin hot doe.ahha.serious.aku jujur:)
hrm.okay.she's one of my bestie.she helps me a lot la,so i know like time school dulu.we cannot work out together kan?hee.i pun thgt that the frenship that we build will end up but it seem that kita boleh bertahan until now.so im grateful to have a friend like you:)im serious.when theres noone to listen to all my problems and craps.like sapa la nk dgr aku membebel mengumpat dan menggedik.but u are always there,thnks babe:)kau byk pegang rahsia aku,and pls simpan ketat2 taw.haha
well,pape pun i hope that bila kau dah beranak cucu pun,keep updating story pasal diri kau dkat aku lah ye:)
and i really hope u will get a boyfie as soon.i'll pray fr that:P
lastly.iloveyousomuch.duh.dah mcm lesbo pulak aku.hahah

sincerely,

si comel:)

MMZ

2010-04-12T09:20:00.000-07:00

haha.okay.now i would like to introduce my new baby.ahha."baby" ni because he sleeps very early oh.ahha,but snce dia knal i,dia dah pandai tdo lambat.ahha.so pity him la kan:P
nak introduce nama ke?no la kan.figure it out la sndri.i mlas nk amik gamba laen so i letak je la gmba shisha u ni okay?ahha.err.since u jd follower i yg x sah,so i nak post la pasal u kali ni.ahha.well.THANKS,i was like sgt terharu oh.haa.i didn't expect u to kluar to just beli topup share dgn i.duh no one had ever did to me bfre:P
so mmg i igt u smpai mati ouh.haa.hiperbolanya i.tp this is sincerely from my heart taw:)hrm.don't worry i wont cll u "gila" sbb nnti u x nk share lgi dgn i.haha.hrm.well,lgi stu?dia ni sgt melayan crite2 i yg merepek and x logik.haha.well.lst night i didn't dream bout the baby.ni semua salah you la.sedih je i:(bila la i boleh jumpa dia lgi.u STOLE him ouh.haha.er.okay again i dah merepek:)
lastly i just wanna say its nice to know someone like you:)

sincerely,
dania:)

im done!

2010-04-12T09:10:00.000-07:00

okay!thnx God.the interview was over.seriously mcm x percaya
and i can say the quests were quiet tough:)
but alhamdulillah i managed to answer the quests eventough soalan mcm tricky gla:(
but pape pun dah lepas.i just hope i cn get the scholar:)
hrm.the rest of u yg blum lgi.i can say u guys can do it.insyaallah:)
its all depends on ur answer.:)
hee.okay done with the interview part!
hrm.while waiting fr the reslt.hush.nak buat apa,
haish.boringnya.seem like i kena go through another lifeless month.
x sukanya.:(
feel like nak kerja.tp sni mcm fuck gla nak cri kerja.
i dah fed up.my mum sruh keja dkat KFC or McD.
eww.tanak la.jdi kuli je.haha
hbes tangan nnti.haha.
err.tgk la.mcm rasa waste je tahun ni.nk dkat bulan half year but i got nothg to do.:(
hrm.takan la keja shopping je.haha.
mcm anak raja pulak rasa.:)
hrm.whatever pun.i thnx God for everythg i got:)

2010-03-16T00:02:00.000-07:00

introduce my annoying,hot-tempered syster:)
opps!little sister:D

why?

2010-03-14T10:08:00.001-07:00

why?why u x buang i lg?y i still ade kat your topfriend?
i mean i'm the only girl there.why,pls tell me:(

blurb:D

2010-03-13T08:45:00.000-08:00

well people:)
this is my kampung:D

PAP!

2010-03-10T16:56:00.000-08:00

urgh.why ths weekend be the toughest one among the rest:(

thursday: spm result will be announced:(
friday : i'll be having my jpj test:(
sunday: birthday party risya:)

i feel like killing myself,seriously:)

2010-03-10T10:05:00.000-08:00

haha.ni gaduh berebutkan laki ni.haha:)

2010-03-10T10:04:00.001-08:00

why must every hello ends with a goobye?
can anybody answer me?:)

psst.i hate you:)

2010-03-09T05:18:00.000-08:00

i really hate you.
i really do,just go away,pls?

tick tock!

2010-03-08T23:11:00.000-08:00

okay2.enough ah nk bunyi tick tock dentam dentum ke.
but time dah x boleh stop kan.
in not less than 40 hours je result will be announced
ouch!takut glaa.boleh shaking satu badan,
11 march.date yg mmg x kan dilupakan even bila dah beranak cucu pun.
haih.hopefully,i dapat result with flying colours.
urgh please lah.tyme pmr dulu pun rase nk tercabut lutut tgk name
ni pulak spm yg org ckap so-called penentu masa hadapan.
well fr me.its just the beginning pun.
if x dpat,doesn't mean that its the ned of the world.
so,aha,ni actually saje nk sedapkan hati je.hahaha.
so to all spm leavers 2009:)
i wish that we all will pass with flying colours and get excellent result okay?:)
to orion,we had done our best so whatever result kluar pun.i still love u guys:)

2010-03-07T20:28:00.000-08:00

It's always the same in every relationship, there is always one person crying and wishing to get back together, while the other doesn't even remember the things they've been through. I hate that I have to be the one who remembers every little detail while you can't seem to remember me at all.

p/s:maaf,post2 seterusnya akan byak diisi dgn quotes:)
im healing myself probably:)

2010-03-07T20:19:00.000-08:00

I don't miss him, I miss who I thought he was.

p/s:i still try to forget you:)

sudden attack!

2010-03-07T11:23:00.000-08:00

there come to a point where u don't care anymore to what people think or say about you.
because why?its ur life,not them
u dont have the right to change me
hate me and leave me?i don't give a damn pun
i know whats good or bad fr me okay
we are not perfect.i know what's my weakness.
but i'll chnge when im ready.im not bad:)
haha.i mean i don't kill people.i don't take drug alcohol.
just pls don't force me.my chracter change according to my appearance
when im in baju kurung,x kan lah aku nk tnjuk yg aku ni free hair pulak kan?:)
so deal with it okay?btw thnx fr whom yg advice ke ape ape lah
thnx fr ur concern.i do appreciate:)
and and and urgh.malas lah nak tules evntgh dalam hati ni rase nk sumpah seranah orang!
tdo lah dulu:)

2010-03-07T10:26:00.000-08:00

haha.she's my cousin:)
comel kan?hee.we all pggl die K.tuty:)
die kate "haih,ade aje tikus mondok kat blakang sibuk bergambar!"
get it?:)

mendung

2010-03-07T06:27:00.000-08:00

tuan tuan dan puan puan,
starting from today and onwards,aku dah mati.
aku ulangi aku dah mati
there's no point lagi dah.
ignore aku,faham?sebab aku dah mati,
jiwa aku dah kosong,jasad aku dah melayang.
jangan tanya sbb aku cakap aku dah mati.
i'll go away.i really hope.
aku xkan menyusahkan lagi,forgive me for wht ive done.
sesungguhnya its true wht u have said.
x payah simpan lagi aku ni.x berguna pun.
and from now,dania inarah dah x da:)
i really hope i'll rest in peace:)

grrrr!

2010-03-06T22:03:00.000-08:00

haha.latest post ni aku nak cakap.aku jadi makin rebel!u guys percaya x?
ahhaha.ths is the way if aku nk meluahkan kemarahan rase menyampah or frustration.:)
well let the picture do the talk okay:)
peace!

2010-03-06T02:24:00.000-08:00

haha.wtv pun.ade aku kesah:)

girlfriends:)

2010-03-04T05:41:00.000-08:00

oh yeah.the latest post rase mcm nk tules pasal friendship:)
hee.i guess evryone needs friends.
even i pun.i mean best frens.
they are the one yg boleh dgr evry problem yg u ade.
ahha.x kesah lah even i merepek dah tahap melampau2 pun.
they are still there to listen.to hear my problems.to make me laugh back.
yes.igt senang ke nk cri kawan yg really honest dgn kite.
if u all bace ni.tolong2 lah terasa eh.ahaha.
i mean a good terasa ahh:)hrm.i mean sometimes x de boyfren pun x pe.
janji ade bff yg always be beside u:)
knkn?haha.tp kan mcmane lah nnti life dkat U kan.
evryone busy dgn study masing2.sure terkejar sane terkejar sni
haih.like mase pg eng camp harituh.sume orang jalan sorang2 je.
haih.x sunyi ke ha?haha.
ahh.pape lah kan.lambt lagi kut:)
ade lah lagi 3 bulan lagi.
so malas ah nk pkir:)
haih.serious takut esok.hopefully i'll pass the jpj test:(

2010-03-04T05:31:00.000-08:00

they are some of my friends yg i jumpe during the eng cmp:)
althgh it was just a week but serious best glaaaa:)
i miss u guys doh,seriously:(

2010-03-03T18:00:00.001-08:00

hee.now forget about the sad part.
because now im enjoying every single moment of my life.
i mean yeah after all the shit that happen.
i just couldn't believe i can frget about u in just about 2 days.
i thgt it would be difficult,but fortunately its just a miracle.
i found someone,i mean a guy that bring back wht i've left befre.
he's not my boyfie pun,but he treats me well.
and i realize that a "boyfie-girlf" realtionship makes someone hurt badly.
so i decided not to have it right now.
fr the sake of i dn't want to get hurt in the futre:)
i realize that befre ths i terlampau syg him that evrythg that he did
i just took it.i simpan dlm hati.sabar and continue the relationship.
but thn smpai ble kan?so when he ingnored me and officially mntak break mase our anniversary,so i thgt it would be the end:)
no need to say lah yg u love me or wht because its so bullshit taw x?haha
and if u ckp u nak kte still keep in touch?hbes slama ni yg u ignre i.ade u cntct i?
ahha.nmpk fake gle kan?haha.pape lah u.:)
yes,i cried badly.some of my friends asked me.
do i sedih sebab kena dump or sbb love him?
i guess because i syg die:)i hpe u cn find someone better dr i
and please learn how to treat a girl.
jgn lah kejar awl2 and then u just ignre her just like wht u did to me.
but now, i have no regret about that.
well.S,may u have the best life:)

2010-03-01T00:27:00.001-08:00

now i know the feeling of being dump:)

2010-03-01T00:19:00.000-08:00

i become tougher each day:)
and i really hope i can forget evrythg between us:)
u don't know how suffer am i,
ur promise really made me sick.i swear!
just live ur life!be happy!
i hope u learn how to appreciate girls more because obviously u don't know how to treat girls the way it should:)

now,i'll just look forward and never turn back:)

2010-02-27T09:14:00.000-08:00

this is the tough moment fr me
while i'm wrting ths my tears keep rolling down
but it's okay
tht's a life.i never thought this would be the end.
i mean after all u did,i x sangke u berubah macam ni.
why?ape salah i?
i syg u.tp u buat i mcm ni.
bru i rase sketnya broke up.mybe ade hikmah behind what had happen.
i believe it.i should continue my life.
move on dania.its not the end of the world.
now.i should learn how to frgt u.and learn to accept the fact.
i see my future,i should move on.
i don't need a boyfie ryte now or maybe forever.:)

dania

shawl:)

2010-02-25T21:29:00.000-08:00

NOW I'M THINKING OF WEARING TUDUNG:)

YES.IT'S NEARLY 70%!

I'VE CHANGED.I HOPE SO:)

dilema

2010-02-07T00:12:00.000-08:00

oh man.im so in dilemma ryte now.
whether i should just let u go or just keep holding on.
ive tried but sometimes it didn't work out.
im not stupid.im not blind.so please show me somethng.
somethg clear so that i cn understnad clearly whts going on.
ive closed my heart for all guys.its just fr u.
u don't know wht am i dealing wth.
just tell me if u have someone.
at least.i can heal myself now.i can change my mind.set it up back.
and go on wth my life.
so pls.don't let me find my own way:)

money!

2010-02-04T06:23:00.000-08:00

now im making money through internet.
well actually i just started doing it:)
when ive got the income i'll tell u how:)

*blinkblink*hopefully i can be a millionaire.aha

conversation:)

2010-02-03T02:20:00.000-08:00

haha.suddenly rase mcm nk tulis somethng about last night.
hrm.after all.lame dah x borak about secret2 thngs dgn papa
so last night i did.
thts the only way pun nk dpt extra pocket
haha
so i talked about somethg personal with him.
and haa.he's so open minded.i feel comfortable talking to him.
i confessed to him that i have a BOYFRIEND:)
and he seem like sengih2.and give me some advice.
haha.and pling best mntak permission blek lmbt sket bcause it seem i cannot tolerate much dgn my mum.so kene gune kuasa VETO lah kan mintk dkat papa.
and after my mum came.we stopped talking about that.
after all i thnk talking with father is much easier.
the most important part that i like is that "Along dah besar kan.u've already 18.i understand.whatever pun take care of yourself"
haha.fr me.it sounds unbelievable bcause my mum always think that im just a little kid and blablabla.
so yeah.it gives me some confidence when my dad said it:)
hrm.pnjng lagi cnversationnya.but malas lah nk tulis
whatever pun.my mission ACCOMPLISHED:)

nightmare:(

2010-01-31T04:12:00.000-08:00

urgh.last night had been the worst ever.
i dreamt of something.i mean someone
he died.and im scared.
yes.and out of sudden,i'd cried
thats the best part.no wonder he had been so nice to me lately,
i wonder is it a sign or what.
i hope its not.im not ready.
neither do all of us.pls dont go.
and i hope i wont dream of him tonight.
i want to REST IN PEACE.
stopped.

2010-01-31T00:31:00.000-08:00

"If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it"

hell yeah:)

2010-01-30T23:45:00.000-08:00

ryte now whn im writing.
its just so confusing.
bengang.marah.bersalah.
evrythng.
i want to protect the other but at the same time i have to hurt the other one's feeling.
im so sorry.u should be in my place
im a sister.i have my own problems.
please understand.diri sendiri pun aku x mampu nak tolong.
ni kan nak tolong jaga kau orang.
faham lah.if anythg happen to her,
aku yang kena.aku x nk tanggung lagi satu beban if anythg jd dekat die.
kau pun dah besar.tolong lah tolong aku.
u dah besar.i thgt u cn thnk rationally.
ive enough.jiwa kacau.hati resah.
u should have understand.
i thgt i can count at least skit dgn kau.so pls
what ive said to u just now
im so sorry.i didn't mean.
but somehow pls respect me as ur sister.
bile mama x de.i yang kene take the responsibilty.
tolonglah respect aku.
kau nk buat ape2 kat aku.go ahead.kau nk bunuh aku pun aku x kesah
life's nothng fr me skrg.
but pls don't hurt her.tu je.
even aku pun bengang dgn perangai die.but pls ble mama x de.
jgnlah buat hal.
nk gaduh gaduh dgn aku je.
aku pun sakit.kau tahu x?
sakit jiwa hati.pls help me to get through ths.
i guess kau pun nmpk betapa tertekan nya aku skrg.
kalau mata die jadi pape.kau nk tanggung?
kau nk tanggung rase bersalah tu?
kau nk?aku x sanggup.its just a book.kalau pun kau x suke membazir dan syang buku tu.
aku bayar balek.dun wry lah.
jgn samekan harga seorang adik dgn stu buku.
kau dah besar.kau patut faham.
i dont know nk luah dekat sape.
im writing ths just to calm my self down
dgn ditambah dgn masalah hidup yg x penah berkesudahan
susahkan bile orang questioned when u want to chnge.
lebih2 lagi ble org yg paling rapat dgn u.
it makes me feel more down.lgi kurang percaya dgn diri sendiri.
im having that prob.one of them.
i feel lonely.useless.
theres a part of me that doesnt belong to me anymore.
im dying.i want to have all those memories again.
friends.family.
i want to smile like before again.
laughing and do what i want.
its the last thing i do bile i cnnot cntrol myself,
BLOGGING:)
now im feeling much better.at least 1% is enough for me.
im healing myself:)
pray for me.

bye:)

2010-01-02T08:03:00.000-08:00

just be patient yea dania:)

2009-12-30T04:03:00.000-08:00

:D

2009-12-20T07:00:00.000-08:00

hey!
it's been a long time i x post any blog.
ntah.feel like nothng to share:)
life as school leaver biase2 je
nt that so fucking interesting pun
haa.
now ntah.mcm x de perasaan je
and tibe2 semua jadi *x kesahlah* fr me
aha.x phm pun x pe.
i just nk merepek je nih
hrm.haa.later2 lah i tules pnjg2
ape lah naseb.phne yg skrg gune phne nk nyala padam
haa.
nasib malang sgguh:)
haha
k lah.tata.later:)

:)

2009-12-20T06:47:00.000-08:00

sigh

2009-11-26T01:05:00.000-08:00

does he love me too?*urgh*

spm

2009-11-13T05:30:00.000-08:00

i'll be sitting spm examination next week:)
so.pray fr my success.
and do forgive me for every single things i did:)
i might don't realize it:)
i'm hoping everyone's blessing:)
bye.:)

trying to stay calm and cool:)

wondering

2009-11-07T05:04:00.000-08:00

papa dah taw ke i lost my phne?:)
gle cuak:)
bt y die x marah and not even tanye i?
haih tggu je lah surprise esok:)
apelah present yg papa nk bg ni:D

scared

2009-11-07T04:59:00.001-08:00

i'm counting the day.
only a week left.
cn i make it?
God above plis help me.
facing ths freaking big exams.
i want that 9 a+ really badly.
people.
do pray fr my success.
and do forgive all the wrong doings i made.
i may not realize what i've done:)
i'm hoping fr evryone's blessing:)
AND only a month left then i'm FREE!:)
adek,dun't get jelous:)

bye,bye.

LEE:)

25 more days

2009-10-23T22:01:00.000-07:00

counting fr spm.
but i don't know lah.
makin dekat nak spm.
makin eager aku nak kluar skola.
bknnya takut spm.haih.
y oh y?
but still boleh control:)
lots of plan dah pikir.
hrm.business.license.enjoy.vacation.n bla2:)
cn't wait:)
and of course seeing the real world:)
and finding someone who can accept me fr who am i:)