goodbye

i feel like expressing something.but im not sure about what
the fight between aku dgn mak aku buat aku tak tenang.
haish.aku dah mintak maaf okay?now dah okay dah.
but yeah lately kita selalu gaduh.idk why.
apa x kena dgn aku?tp theres part of her advice yg buat aku terfikir beribu kali.
betul ke at the end,aku xkan ada sesiapa?btul ke evryone would leave me?
and should i say no to "hye" because somehow it will lead to a goodbye?
aku jadi takut.aku jadi fobia.aku jadi takut untuk nak tahu masa depan.
and apa adik aku ckp semua btul.aku pun x percaya betapa jahatnya aku,angkuhnya aku di mata mereka.aku jadi lalai leka,aku x patut buat semua tu.
they miss the old "along":(but wht's wrong with the along yg skrg?
aku jadi buntu.fikiran aku x tenteram.aku rasa mcm nk humban diri dalam laut so that evryone x rasa susah lagi dgn aku.aku x tahu apa perasaan aku skrg.im totally blind.
bila my mum ckp we only have each other aku jadi sgt sayu.i know its perit.
we dont have anybody except family yg always be there kan?they are so kind,they appreciate us:)so,ive realized no matter beribu kawan yg ada pun.at the end,they will leave me,for that aku kena build the wall dlm diri to not crying or regreting anythg when thgs macmni happened.ive also made a promise to not fall in love so easy because i dont want to get hurt.all this while,aku terlampau senang fall in love that sometimes mereka sgt senang memijak.so from now onwards,u will see a new DANIA,apa yg orang nampak x semesti sama dgn apa dalam hati aku.so lantak lah apa kau orang nk ckp sbb aku tahu siapa diri aku.and aku rasa aku dah mula belajar untuk menjadi keras hati:)its bad but somehow its good.being dania is not easy.haha.
poyo lah pulak.banyak responsiblity but sometimes aku yang terlepas pandang.hrm.so u guys yang baca ni.i know blog aku banyak cerita pasal kesedihan and stuffs,tp only dkat sni la aku dpt luahkan apa yg aku rasa sejujurnya,thnkk for whom yang concern:)