:D

hey!
it's been a long time i x post any blog.
ntah.feel like nothng to share:)
life as school leaver biase2 je
nt that so fucking interesting pun
haa.
now ntah.mcm x de perasaan je
and tibe2 semua jadi *x kesahlah* fr me
aha.x phm pun x pe.
i just nk merepek je nih
hrm.haa.later2 lah i tules pnjg2
ape lah naseb.phne yg skrg gune phne nk nyala padam
haa.
nasib malang sgguh:)
haha
k lah.tata.later:)

:)

sigh

does he love me too?*urgh*

spm

i'll be sitting spm examination next week:)
so.pray fr my success.
and do forgive me for every single things i did:)
i might don't realize it:)
i'm hoping everyone's blessing:)
bye.:)

trying to stay calm and cool:)

wondering

papa dah taw ke i lost my phne?:)
gle cuak:)
bt y die x marah and not even tanye i?
haih tggu je lah surprise esok:)
apelah present yg papa nk bg ni:D

scared

i'm counting the day.
only a week left.
cn i make it?
God above plis help me.
facing ths freaking big exams.
i want that 9 a+ really badly.
people.
do pray fr my success.
and do forgive all the wrong doings i made.
i may not realize what i've done:)
i'm hoping fr evryone's blessing:)
AND only a month left then i'm FREE!:)
adek,dun't get jelous:)

bye,bye.

LEE:)

25 more days

counting fr spm.
but i don't know lah.
makin dekat nak spm.
makin eager aku nak kluar skola.
bknnya takut spm.haih.
y oh y?
but still boleh control:)
lots of plan dah pikir.
hrm.business.license.enjoy.vacation.n bla2:)
cn't wait:)
and of course seeing the real world:)
and finding someone who can accept me fr who am i:)

unforgiven

again i lost something yg i really sayang.memang x sngka lah.i just got new phne fr my bday present last week.yet phne twh kene crik smlm.and the most saddest part is i just use it fr a day.before ni hilang purse ksyangan.tp x pelah.bcause it wasn't so expensivelah kalaw nk dicompare dgn a phne.dah la kene crik masa masuk dlm train.let me tell u what happen act.frst masa nk masuk train i didn't realize wher i put it.then masa dlm train i cri2 lah dlm bag,pocket and everywhere.tp x jumpe.fine.maybe ade lah tersorok kat celah2 mane.
sddnly my mum cll my num.and guess wht?ade org angkat.and the bckground sound memang mcm dalam train.bt mayb dalam gerabak yang lain.GOSH!only God knows how i feel that tyme.gle rase dunia nih empty.because it happened x smpai berapa scnd pun.then pling bongok.org twh cll back my mum.we kept trying to cll that num.mmang dye x bukak sim lagi.probably seronok bace msg i lah kut.thnx god x de mende yg merisaukan dlm phne twh:( few hours later cll balek.dye angkat but senyap je.hrm.i know it sounds silly to mengharap lagi tp i really hope org twh bleh pulangkan blek.and tdy i call lg.dye dah buang kut sim twh.sedeh gle:((i macm org gle dlm train smlm.keep on searching org.and nanges.evryone looking at me.tp ape i pedulik.sp x syang weyh.br sehari dpt.then my mum cmfort me.ade rezeki kite bli baru.mayb that phone not meant for me.x pe lah i redha.i doakan org yg curik twh mati katak and otak pecah kat tgh jalan:)AMIN:)and one more thng mende nih i have to keep as a secret frm my dad sbb kalaw die taw i know he will sgt kecewa.sory Pa.these are some of dugaan yg i face ths year.sometimes i pkir asl semua bende yg i jaga elok2.syang sgt2 ilang sekelip mata.what have i done wronG?x pe lah dania.evry single thing yang happen ade hikmah.u just hold to that words okay:P

and now i feel so much released.biarlah.lepas ni bli phne cikai cukuP:D

him

DARLIS BIN SAMSUDIN
atuk,
walaupun kita tidak serapat mana,tetapi kehilanganmu amat dirasai,
betullah kata orang,kita tidak akan merindui seseorang sehingga dia lenyap dari pandangan mata,
berbahagialah di alam sana yang berkekalan,
menyaksikan babak memilukan sebentar tadi cukup menyentuh emosi jiwa
seakan berada di dalam sebuah lakonan
penuh tragedi memilukan.
di saat seorang isteri tidak mampu berhadapan dengan penceraian mati bersama suaminya.
di saat seorang anak menangis kekesalan atas tanggungjawab yang selama ini diabaikan.
aku yang melihatnya seakan turut dapat merasai
keperitan kesedihan
seorang anak yang dahulunya berdendam dengan ayahnya akhirnya menangis kekesalan.
penuh dengan tangisan air mata
oelh itu,aku dapat simpulkan walau siapa jua ayah kita
walau buruk mana pun dia.
dia tetap seorang ayah.
tanpa dia,tidak lengkaplah kromosom ciptaan penuh seorang manusia.
terima da hargainya sebelum tiada ruang masa
kematian tidak menunggu kita.
malah ia semakin menghampiri kita setiap detik dan ketika.
bukan bilangan detik hati yang dikira.
disaat berhadapan sakaratulmaut,hanya kehadirannya wajar dihargai,
menyedekahkan bacaan yasin serta tidak putus2 mengalunkan kalimah syahadah di telingannya.
aku juga seperti insan biase,
tidak pernah sempurna.
oleh itu,sepuluh jari ku susun,memohon keampunan kepada papa atas segala yang telah aku lakukan.
kepada mereka yang masih mempunyai bapa,
walau dunia ini terbalik 360 darjah sekalipun,ikatan yang terjalin tidak akan pernah putus.
ayah mana tidak sayangkan anaknya.

p/s: atuk,semoga atuk ditempatkan dalam kalangan orang2 yang soleh.amin.
akhirnya,aku hilang kedua-duanya,

yang benar,
dania

so in love:P

my deary purse:)

for whoeva yg curi or terambil my purse,
i beg u,plis give me back.
it brings 1001 stry fr me.
i really need.i beg u.kalaw x pun,tolonglah plgkan i/c or my borang matrix.
lgpun x de duet pun.no use u amek pun.
plis n plis.
god above.tlglah tunaikan my wish:(

people i love

FINALLY

finally trial was over:)
i just feel so mch released evntgh i didn't did well in ths trial.
x pe lah.there's always ade hikmah perkara yg berlaku.
just bertawakal after all.
wtv pun spm is the target!
gogogogo dania!

plkn

thnx god aku x dpt PLKN.tiada kata yang dapat digambarkan kecuali aku sangat gembire!
lots of plan had been made.duh can't wait for it:P

"ADA UBI ADA BATAS, ADA HARI ADA BALAS"

just wait for my revenge:)

THE CLIMB

I can almost see it

That dream I’m dreaming but

There’s a voice inside my head sayin,

You’ll never reach it,

Every step I’m taking,

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

but I Got to keep tryin

Got to keep my head held high

There’s always going to be another mountain

I’m always going to want to make it move

theres always going to be an uphill battle,

Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,

Ain’t about how fast I get there,

Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side

It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing,

The chances I’m taking

Sometimes they might knock me down but

No I’m not breaking

I may not know it

But these are the moments thatI’m going to remember most yeah

Just got to keep going

And I,I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on,cause

There’s always going to be another mountain

I’m always going to want to make it move

Always going to be an uphill battle,

Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,

Ain’t about how fast I get there,

Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side

It’s the climbThere’s always going to be another mountain

I’m always going to want to make it move

Always going to be an uphill battle,

Sometimes you're going to have to lose,

Ain’t about how fast I get there,

Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side

It’s the climb

Keep on moving

Keep climbing

Keep the faith baby

It’s all about

It’s all about

The climb

Keep the faith

Keep your faith

rase apakah ini?

sakitnya menusuk kalbu.

pada siapa harus aku luahkan.

kenape aku harus meletakkan harapan kepada perkara yg pasti tdk terjadi.

bodoh dania.

lupekan sgalenya.

hidup satu percaturan.

sudah pasti ade hikmah disebalik yg terjadi

buka hati dan minda

lihat disekeliling.

aku ingin menangis tp untuk apa?

aku ingin meraung tp pada siapakah ingin kutujukan?

kaburnya suatu pandangan.

lenyapnya sebuah gunung.

tiada apa yang dipinta

kecuali sebuah magik dalam kehidupan yg mengubah segalanya.

yang membawa aku ke dunia khayalanku.

penuh bunga bunga cahaya

suatu hari aku pasti akan temui

hanya menunggu masa dan putarannya.

dia tidak bersalah.tidak sama sekali.

aku sudah mula dapat menerimanya.

dan buat masa ini jiwa memang benar benar kosong dan tawar.

hanya itu yang mampu aku rasa

yang benar,
dania

p/s: aku sedikit emo malam ini.tiada kata mampu diungkap.maaf:)

HE'S SO DAMN HOT:D

mum

I MISS U BADLY

PRAY FOR ME THERE:)

ENOUGH

i think it's time fr me to move on.

i'm hundred percent giving up

may god bless u.

i'll pray for ur hapiness:)

him

to u.
i used to know u as a very nice person.
seriously i never found one like u before.
bt what u did to me was so cruel that i never expected befre.
no explaination.no questions.
bt rite now i really miss u.
it's my decision
so serve me rite.
cn't u understand why.
cn't u just pretend tht we cn just be friend even if the wrld spinning round.
i'm writnig this just to let evrything go.
i want to clearly frget abt u.
and rite now.
this moment.
i feel much more relieved.
frm now and onwards.
u're totally been deleted in my entire life.
thnk you:)

suffer

finally exam habis.i'm dead.penatlah doing all these stuffs.rase mcm da give up.nak tunggu 6 months lagi.god!penat.x larat.stress.saket.everything.susah nk describe.i wish i cn't just let evrithing go.dah puas kene console ngn my mum.urgh.

to be continued:)

HE'S SO DAMN COMEL:)

NO PURPOSE PUN.JUST WANNA SHOW HOW COMEL HE IS DENGAN HIS BAJU TDO:)

why do people chnge so drastically whenu dun evn ready to get used to it
why can't just they stay the way they are
"PEOPLE CHANGE".
how lame it is rite?
when looking bck through the past.i never thought i've now becoming 17.
one year older than before n always grow older.
i realize i won't be a kid anymore.that's fr sure.
huh.
how life would be so far difficult.the obstacles would be larger.
am i ready to face the real world?
no i dun thnk so.
there's too many things "complicated things" in my mind that i hope i can vanish it within a second.
i hope there'll be a solution fr all my questions.
not less than one year i won't wear my baju sekolah anymore.yeay!
when it comes to it,i really hate it.susah la.dgn iguana lg.enough!
yea.bt i know when i've come to that tyme,i'll surely miss them back.
it's a normal thing.u'll miss the thing that u hate rite?
looking into the future.i hope i can persue my stdy in UK.
i really hope.i want to take medic.
although most of people don not blieve in my ability in it.
what do i care?
i have a vission.i'll make sure it becomes a relity.
but wtv pun its all in GOD's hand.
if He had made a destiny fr me.how can i deny it.
"dibuatnya aku kene kawen tahun dpan"
twh pon sbb allah dah tentukan.
bt i hope it won't happen.selisih malaikat 44.
yeay.my dream is to smbg stdy dkt UK then sty sane fr about 15 years,
i want to work thre,have a really stable job so that i won't depend on any guy.
i won't ask fr their precious money.no and never.
i've analysed nowadays woman being ditindas because they don't have jobs.
they depend on man fr the sake of the children.yeah that's what we said as SACRIFICE.
i've no doubt about it.okay stop talking about that.
after that i''ll start to think about my own personal life.
after counting the years,i'll be arnd 30 +++ at that time,
"ade ke org nk kat aku wktu twh?"
haha.lantaklah lah.kalaw x de.i've made a deal with my mum.
by the time i don't have any calon when 1'm 28.
please find one for me:)
sounds so conservative.
but what do i care.it's totally my dull life not yours.
then i'll think about the small2 things after that.
so what can i conclude my life would act begin when i'm already 30++
but as i've said.it's just my planning.it would maybe change over time.
if one day i meet sumone who really can show he's so different with others.that's the time i'll started to change all my plannings just to be with him.wtv i'm still like othr teenagers who need potion to be healed:)

hrm no conclusion pun abt both of this picture.she's the same person.i admit i have two dfrnt personality.got any problems with that?:)

here's about my family day held last 2 weeks:)

what can i say..FANTASTIC!

we had lots of fun there.:)

STUPID SACRIFICE!

oh god!i really hope we all x payah pg BTN.it's such a stupid bloody actvt.common lah kteorg nk exam mid year kut.there's no other tyme lah nk study.that weekend is the only one yang kteorg ade nk release tension n all those stuffs.tolonglah!i really hope there's sumone yg boleh tlg kteorg.miracle datang so that kteorg x pyh pg.plis n plis.we all really down yang teramat.next 2 weeks dah exam mid year.another burden dtg.:(
dah la.sj meluah prasan yg gle hancur skrg:)

BOLLYWOOD

hrm.seem like dah lame x update blog.this overnight i was like so boros.so many things beli.nyesal pun ade.bt x pe lah.it's abt a month dah x blek.mayb fr sme people."alah!baru sblan."bt fr me sblan means alot bg org yg tggl dekat++dependent nih.hee.tmrw going fr FAMILY GATHERING!can't wait.dah lame gle x jumpe my relatives.almobt abt like 4 month.haha.that's y i'm so damn
excited.the best part ade theme lg twh.BOLLYWOOD!sure everyone melaram sakan lah kowt.my family biase je lah.bt ths year sad sket lah.my father x de.tggllah we all 4 members dalam family.bt it's so okaylah.we all fine with it.dah IMMUNE.hahaha.
hrm.byk pulak membebel.later i cerite abt how my fam gathering went on:)
bye~

home sweet home

I'M FINALLY BACK HOME:)

silly things:)

masa: 7.30 malam

hari: rabu

tujuan: berbuka puasa di dewan makan

keseganan: tanpa meyedari telah mengelap tangan pada kain baju kurung NADIA:) di bawah meja

(patutlah macam licin smacm je alas meja nih:P)

tindakan: sorry babe.x sengaje.telah mencuci menggunakan air masak.

silly dania.muke u merah gle.tu lah spe sruh pemlas sgt:)

a nice memory

i never blame u for the wrong doing that u have done to us.
just came back and be together.
we'll just look and wait for u to come to us.
but if u'll never come back
it is a faith that been stated
we accept it without regret:)

homesick

nak balek:(

tabiat buruk

urgh.tdy dah almost 3 kali kene tgor.sbb pe?i asyek nganga je.haih nk bwt cmne.that's totally my habit since azali lagi.lyk besh je.after that sure rase ngontok:)ngee.not that x penah try nk berubah bt memng sah2 x mnjadi.(x pe la dania.janji kaw bahagie:)

EVERYTHING

I MISS ALL THE THINGS I LEFT BEHIND:(

walking colours?

hr.exam mid term was quiet okylah.puas hatila jgk.alhamdulillah:)8a1 1a2.bt plg frst a2 twh was addmath:(x pe lah dania.work harder next tyme oky.salah kaw jugak.sp srh cnfident sgt mlm twh stdy physic je.padan muke!hrm. xpe2.i got the lesson dah.jgn stdy last minute.(kaw nk result kaw truk lg ke?)hrm.bundle of exam coming.prove lah fr the next and next exam lg:)haih.penat lah.24 7 tgk buku.x pe2.final year.counting the day je nk end up all this.around 7 month lg:)
wtv.chayok2 dania!
da la.later continue stry lg:)

FINALLY

i create blog.
after a long time dihasut.br skrg nak sedar.
while looking at intan' s blog.tgn suddnly menggatal nak buat jugak.
wtv pun.dah buat pon
yeay!